I have painted my living room RED. A very deep, unapologetic, will take 3 coats to cover RED. I love it. I feel like it is the first step to starting my new life on my own.
Monday, January 4, 2010
Changing my status
I have been dreading changing my status on Facebook to "Single". I knew that it would initiate a barrage of questions. In fact, I was doing a pretty good job of avoiding it until I realized that was the WORST thing I could do. I have to answer the questions eventually, why not get it over with?
So I did it. I got 2 messages in the first 5 minutes. Not too bad so far. We'll see what happens tomorrow when the daytime people wake up and think, "WTF?" Then I'll have to explain it over and over again.
I guess I don't understand my shame with all of this. I feel like I'm having to tell people I murdered someone. That's how bad I feel. Like a murderer. I'm just not used to putting my needs first. It's so bizarre to think that I deserve anything good. I am my own worst enemy. Man, that's getting annoying.
So I did it. I got 2 messages in the first 5 minutes. Not too bad so far. We'll see what happens tomorrow when the daytime people wake up and think, "WTF?" Then I'll have to explain it over and over again.
I guess I don't understand my shame with all of this. I feel like I'm having to tell people I murdered someone. That's how bad I feel. Like a murderer. I'm just not used to putting my needs first. It's so bizarre to think that I deserve anything good. I am my own worst enemy. Man, that's getting annoying.
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